Saturday, October 13, 2012
Almost only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades...it's what my best friend on earth is always so quick to tell me. It used to annoy me, but now I like when he says it and I've gone ahead and incorporated it into my phraseology. I feel like almost has recently become a too-familiar word in my vocabulary...I often have almost enough money, almost get to see someone, almost make it to a goal. I'm feeling a bit demotivated right now despite the fact I accomplished some good things today (work and lots of painting). It's easy to lose sight of my small accomplishments because I feel like I've been behind for so long on so many things, haven't gotten what I want in a little while. Is the real problem that I want things I can't have? I wanted to go see ex-LI tomorrow and we discussed it, but he hasn't gotten back to me since our last talk; I'm annoyed, but mostly disappointed because dumb or not, I really wanted it even though I'm thinking it will probably never work out. I'm disappointed for wanting it at all, because what I really want is to see new guy, which also isn't possible right now. I wanted to go to the non conference this weekend, but alas it was beyond my reach (I do hope all the attendees had a blast!) I wanted to have taken the GRE by now, but I just didn't get things together and still haven't been able to make it happen...I can't afford it even with the voucher, which demotivates my studying. I almost got to see my bff, but he got a flat tire on his way up and had to turn around. It'd be nice to turn things around and make a comeback instead of having so many almosts.