Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Sorry it's been so long since I last posted; I've been working A LOT!! Things have been pretty stressful financially, but I just landed an exceedingly well paying job that lies within the realm of what I do for my own business, except taxes will be deducted. It's surreal and has the potential to change my life in some huge ways. I'll be working pretty much non stop throughout December, but will try to post updates when I can. Thank God for the 1%!
Monday, November 12, 2012
Everything feels really messed up right now...seems like there are disappointments at every turn. Finding another job or additional clients is taking a lot longer than I'd imagined, and in the meantime I have bills piling up and creditors calling my phone. Things with new LI are ok (even since the botched talk about how we feel), but I'm itching to see him; he invited me to come along on a possible trip with him and the guys, but it seems to have fallen through (not his doing). I'm not young anymore and life isn't supposed to be like this- I haven't achieved anything I need to achieve, I'm broke, drowning in debt, and nowhere close to a solution. It's easy to feel demotivated and lacking hope, but there's not much to do other than keep trying. I've always had difficulty dealing with change and dealing with lag time on anything, and I have a feeling that upcoming opportunities are going to come with necessary compromises. I'm hoping I can stay focused on the end game and make the necessary compromises in order to alleviate the major stress that [lack of] money is putting on me.
Saturday, November 3, 2012
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Nothing like having 6 people (some children) this week ask me (seriously) if I'm pregnant. And certainly nothing like two of them telling me that I have "that glow." And nothing at all like my best friend and others jokingly playing up my neuroticism about the issue. I'm 99% sure I'm not...but there was a very small accident. Either way I must be getting fat, which means I need to kick things up a notch. I'm resisting the urge to go buy a pregnancy test because I can't afford one. This whole scenario could make me cry.