Thursday, January 17, 2013

Lost My Job

Ugh...just when life was starting to work out for once.  I'm reeling, but I'll survive; I believe I was likely hired and purposely led to believe that the position was long-term, when in fact they only wanted me temporarily.  It's disappointing because they could've been honest with me and I would've agreed to a temp position, but they led me on and let me go; the client didn't even have the decency to be present because apparently it was too emotional for her, so she had someone else ambush me and fire me.  It's disappointing, but I'm just trying to be thankful that I paid some bills while I had the job, and that karma's a bitch.  At least I'll have time now to take basic care of myself.  FML

Saturday, January 12, 2013

My Favorite Blonde Children

There are two kids I hang out with on a regular basis and over time, I've started referring to them as my favorite blonde children.  They're amazing tweens, and I invest a lot of time in them.  Lately I've been feeling especially isolated from people my own age since I work so much and that's led me to recently question whether I should spend less time with them and try to widen my circle of friends.  But the second I started thinking about that, invites from people my own age to do fun things started pouring into my inbox and facebook events page, reminding me that it was only a temporary lull.  But more importantly, I've just come to the realization that my life has come full circle.  When I was 13 and working at a summer camp I met a wonderful lady with whom I've been friends ever since.  She was and is very supportive, and is primarily responsible for me turning out as a relatively well-functioning, college-educated adult.  All of that happened because she gave me huge quantities of her time over the years.  I definitely appreciated it then, but I have more perspective on some of the things she sacrificed at that time to be available to me.  The other night, I chose to go hang out with the kids after work instead of accepting a social invite from an acquaintance and realized that I didn't feel guilty at all.  I also don't feel guilty about the fact that my favorite blonde children receive more of my time than any of the other wonderful kids I know.  And I feel 100% confident that I'm doing the right thing because it's exactly what someone did for me when I was their age.  That sounds like such an old person thing to say, but I feel very fortunate to have had someone and to be able to give to these kids, because they don't have nearly as many positive adult resources as any of the other children I know, and they've come to view me as a constant in their lives.  And so I've evolved into the young childless adult who listens and helps with homework and gives more lectures than they'd prefer, but whose phone rings off the hook if I don't appear at their house often enough.  It's really scary to stop and think about how much older I am, and how parental I've become, but they're worth it.  That's probably enough nostalgia for now...busy day tomorrow, and short on sleep.  Good night:)

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Happy New Year

Happy New Year Everyone!! 

I'm a little behind the curve here, but it's still 2013 so I'm not too late.  2013 has been a good year so far despite spending the first few hours of the New Year in the emergency room getting a cut closed up.  My resolution for the year is to find peace and relaxation, preferably in a way that alleviates some of my anxiety.  What are/were your New Year's resolutions?